Entry 70

Well it's been a little while since I've actually written one of these and I really haven't been doing it daily for the past while so continuing with the Day XX titles seemed kinda pointless so I changed it to Entry which makes more logical sense.  As for why I haven't been writing daily or much lately that is mostly because I really haven't done much worth writing about and it would just seem depressing and somewhat pointless to just write an entry saying "Well didn't do much today, just played Dragon Age 2, watched some shows and ate then went to bed" but then again maybe I should try to start doing that as maybe it would encourage me to try to actually do something worth writing about rather then just basically passing time.  Well that's pretty much where I am at the moment

Day 69

Well my trip to Toronto ended up going quite well, I'll probably try to write up a separate post specifically about the convention in the next day or two but overall I enjoyed it and it was really nice to spend sometime with a friend I hadn't really seen in awhile.  I spent pretty much all day in Toronto, a large part of that being at the convention but after we were done there I went back to my friends place as I hadn't seen it and I was able to get two of my friends hooked on the Guild and Community two shows I have really enjoyed and correctly guessed that they would enjoy them as well.  I ended up doing a lot more walking then I expected while I was in Toronto since we ended up walking out to a burger place my friend had mentioned to me in the past and the nearest one was about a 20 - 30 min walk from the convention which isn't really all that far but when you really aren't used to doing much it seems like a lot and I was definitely quite stiff and sore this morning.  All in all it was a good day and I am glad I went.

Day 68

Well I have now confirmed that I will indeed be going up to Toronto to meet up with a friend and then we are going to check out the Toronto Comiccon that is going on which should be interesting as I have never actually been to a convention so I am looking forward to it, I am just loading up my iphone with some audiobooks for the trip as I will be taking the GO train to and from Toronto since I don't want to have to deal with Toronto traffic and there is a stop very close to where to the convention is being held.  It should be quite interesting as it has been quite awhile since I have really done anything out of the house.  So I guess we'll see how things go.

Day 67

Well I think I need to try to start doing these in the morning again so that I don't end up forgetting about them or just being too tired to write them.  I think part of it is that I just don't really know what to write for them much anymore since I really seem to be stuck in this kind of limbo where I am just not doing anything.  I am planning on going into Toronto on the weekend to visit a friend and go to a convention so that'll definitely be something different maybe it'll even be enough to knock me out of this rut I have found myself in. 

Day 66

Well once again I realize that I missed a day of getting a blog post up and I have really been struggling a lot more then usual against this apathy and inaction that has become the hallmark of a lot of my days lately.  As for yesterday I also didn't get a blog post up as I really wasn't at my computer for most of the day which was unusual as I had bought the first season of a TV show called Community while I was out on Saturday and started watching it as I had been feeling fairly down and depressed and just got completely sucked into it so I ended up spending pretty much all day yesterday watching all the episodes and special features especially since the DVD set included cast/crew commentaries on every episode and I think I have mentioned before that that is above all else what I look for and enjoy most as a special feature so by the time I finished watching it all I was quite tired and it was fairly late so I just went to bed and only really realized I hadn't written a blog post this morning.  So that was pretty much my weekend as for this week I don't know I am trying to get myself going but just haven't gotten there yet.

Day 65

I know I didn't manage to get a blog post up yesterday I didn't really think about it in the morning and once it got later I was just too tired to do anything about it.  Didn't really do much yesterday other then play Dragon Age 2 and try to help a few people in my horde guild get a few guild achievements to try to build up some guild XP which we could definitely use.  As for today well I have actually been out of the house for most of the day which is something I haven't done in quite awhile, went out for lunch then did some running around and visited my cousins who are back from doing missionary work with the Tribes in Indonesia so that was nice, but sadly I am kinda worn out from being out so that has been the past 2 days.

Day 64

Well I didn't get too much done today as I wasn't really feeling the best, not exactly sick but definitely not normal either if that makes sense to any of you.  Honestly I think that is really about it for today, going to head to bed and hope that I can get a good night sleep and that I'll be feeling better in the morning.

Day 63

Well today was alright, I got to sit down and talk to one of the people that I have the most respect for out of anyone I know so that was definitely nice.  Other then that not too much was going on today, spent most of the day playing a new game I just got yesterday that I've been looking forward to for awhile, so that was fun.  I have been feeling a little ill the last while tonight so hopefully I'm not getting sick but I guess we'll see.  So I just wanted to make sure to get a blog post in for today as if nothing else I'd like to make sure that I keep up with it in the hopes that it'll help me to continue on stronger in someway.

Day 62

Well I don't know that I really accomplished anything truly productive yesterday which was my goal for yesterday.  I just don't know sometimes is this just something I've let myself become accustomed to and I don't have the strength or the will to snap out of it, or is that just a symptom of an underlying  problem that I have been dealing with for years, or is it some combination of the two or something altogether different.  I just don't really know what to think these days most of the time I feel so weak and so tired that it seems an effort to exist and yet at the same time I know there are so many other people out there that are in much worst situations then mine and yet they are continuing on far better then I am.  I just don't seem to know what to think anymore.

Day 61

Well yesterday is now the second day I haven't written up a blog entry for the day, I still and honestly don't know what it is that has just thrown me so of course of late, I'm sleeping better for the most part and nothing terrible or traumatic has happened so I am at a bit of a loss for what has so derailed my slow but rather steady progress.  There are a couple of things happening this week that I have been looking forward to so hopefully in getting involved with them I might be able to snap out of this slump I've been stuck in.  So my goal for the day is to do something anything to try and help me get out or start to get out of this slump.

Day 60

Well yesterday was the first time that I have actually done made a blog entry I guess it was kinda inevitable with me leaving them till the last minute to write them but it is still a bit of a disappointment.  So here I am to make sure I write this one and write it in the morning to make sure I don't forget this time.  I didn't manage to do anything productive yesterday but at least I didn't feel quite as tired even if I still felt as unmotivated so hopefully that is a good sign.  So my goal for today is to do a little bit of my course work even if it is only for 5 minutes to try to get back on track with it

Day 59

Well another day where I am doing this blog very late and didn't get anything productive done, I really need to try to find a way to break myself out of this slump but I just don't know how.  On the plus side I did get to see two of my friends I hadn't seen in awhile which was really nice and I found out another of my friends is going to be in the area in the summer which is good news as I haven't seen them in quite awhile.  So at least today wasn't a complete waste.  Well here's hoping things start to improve starting tomorrow.

Day 58

Well I think this is the first time I've really come close to not getting a blog post in for the day, I don't know what it is but the past two days I've been exceptionally tired/unmotivated/etc and this time it isn't due to messed up sleep schedule as it is not really bad at the moment.  Since I am going to probably be heading straight to bed after I finish this I won't go through the pointlessness of setting a goal for the "day" at this point.  But I am hoping that I won't feel this way again tomorrow.

Day 57

Well I didn't manage to meet my goal for yesterday as I didn't look at the code at all, I am not entirely sure why I didn't yesterday I was pretty tired most of the day so maybe it was just a off day.  At least my sleeping schedule seems to have returned to a much more normal pattern so that at least is a good thing.  Well I am going to take another crack at looking through and playing around with the code for the first lab project of this lesson in my course today so that will be my goal for the day.